Happy New Year Vinny

I feel great.  I haven't lately, but I do right now.  Circumstances have come into play that have put a lot of things in perspective for me.  Is it worth it to get hung up on one person, any person, when there are so many people and things that make me happy?  I wear my heart on my sleeve a lot of the time. I get sad, and I let people know about it.  I decided just now that I'm done with it, all of it. 

I have a lot going on.  My son makes me so happy it's ridiculous.  The more he learns and the clearer he speaks and the more questions he asks and the way his eyes brighten when he figures something out and the way he says, "I can do it all by myself Daddy."  I'm a good dad....a great dad.  I'm an uncle, recently for the second time.  I thought to myself, "How can I possibly bitch about anything when I have these beautiful kids in my life and such great friends and such a close family." 

Most of all, I recently went through a breakup, and got all sad about it, and wanted her back.  Why?  I was lied to.  I got shit on, and I wanted her back?  Nah dude.  Done with it.  I can do better, and I will.

And maybe it won't be for a while...and that's ok too.  I can do me for a bit.  (Not that way you fucking sickos.)  I have another surgery this week, and I won't be putting anything up for a bit.  But when I come back, it will be with a vengeance.  Watch out everyone, here comes Vinny Mac. I'm killing it at work, I'm going to take a writing class so these posts don't suck so much,  I'm gonna get published at some point.  I'm gonna travel to California.  I'm going to the gym all the time when my elbow is healed...first to rehab it, and then to feel good, and look healthy.  By the summer, I'm going to be back all the way. 

I have so much going for me, even if I don't see it sometimes.  I'm going to make the most of this life instead of just gliding through it.

Doubt me.